Archive for February, 2011

this is getting old

Posted in blah on 02/25/2011 by whatevertoni

My career dilemma has always been a burden for me. Love life issues (or the lack of it) is nothing compared to it. Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuck!!

all fucked up

i hope that cussing is enough to express how utterly frustrated I am. this is too much.


that’s it

Posted in blah on 02/24/2011 by whatevertoni

i give up

Posted in blah on 02/24/2011 by whatevertoni

It’s the same effect all over again.

The connection is and will always be there.

It’s your irresistible charm.

It’s our undefined relationship.

It’s letting my emotions dictate my actions.

It’s the electric shock all over me when we have contact.

It’s one big fuck.



Blissful Youth, Youthful Bliss

Posted in blah on 02/24/2011 by whatevertoni

Some may have forgotten it

For some, it was just a distant memory

Some never had the chance to experience it

Some don’t even have time to reminisce about it

Some think it’s juvenile

Well, it’s like this…

It’s stretching your limited money to go out with your friends. It’s the spur of the moment gimmick. It’s losing your inhibitions while listening to a rock band.  It’s going with the flow of life. It’s opening up, letting your guard down, with no fear of being judged. It’s reckless. It’s letting life lead the way. It’s being true to yourself. It’s discovering yourself. It’s drinking until you drop. It’s smoking like a chimney. It’s wanting to be loved. It’s letting your emotions dictate your actions. It’s a life full of passion. It’s getting lost, and eventually finding your way back. It’s getting lost, hoping to find the right track. It’s getting lost with your friends. It’s a wake up call. It’s passivity at its finest. It’s irresponsible. It’s being young and reckless.

It’s everything you want it to be. It’s a sudden leap with no regrets.

It’s my fucking way of life as of the moment.

messed up hormones

Posted in blah on 02/16/2011 by whatevertoni

I’d like to believe that when I feel sooooo low, it’s only because my hormones are messed up. It comes monthly for women. In times like this, I just hold on tight and let it pass.

You know what’s fucked up?

Posted in blah on 02/01/2011 by whatevertoni

It’s when the HR contacts you for exam and interview. After doing all those things and waiting for hours, they’ll tell you that you don’t have enough experience.

I wanted to say that I really want to be a part of the fucked up HR team. They really need people who actually use their brains.

But I’m always civil when it comes to dealing with conflicts.

I walked away hiding the fact that I was so fucking pissed that my precious day had just been wasted.

Posted in blah on 02/01/2011 by whatevertoni

I don’t know where I’m headed. Once again, the road ahead of me is uncertain. It’s all dark, and I badly need light.