Archive for May, 2011

Hold on to what

Posted in blah on 05/22/2011 by whatevertoni

We sometimes feel like our strength and all that’s left is sucking out of us. We wish to have something or someone to hold on to. I guess at times, we all have to struggle while we’re on our knees.


Posted in blah on 05/19/2011 by whatevertoni

Just when I thought I could breathe freely, two reviewers have conflicting schedules. Lord, I need them by tomorrow!!!! Thank you!

Growth is always painful

Posted in blah on 05/18/2011 by whatevertoni

This is the kind of pain that would stretch you to your limits, and it would hurt all the time.

This is the kind of pain you’d want to avoid, but you couldn’t because it’s necessary in molding you to be a better person.

This is the kind of pain that would shape who you are.

This is the kind of pain that could make you or break you depending on how you react to it.

This is the kind of pain that would leave a heavy load in your heart.

This is the kind of pain that you alone could carry.

This is the kind of pain that you would rather face now than later.

This is the kind of pain that would surely bring tears to your eyes.

This is the kind of pain that would make you stronger.

This is the kind of pain that would suck all the strength in you to be replaced with an even powerful force.

This is the kind of pain that would bring you to your knees and beg for God’s mercy.

This is the kind of pain that brings you closer to God Almighty.

This is the kind of pain that you have to go through.





Tired of all the KPOP drama

Posted in blah, KPOP on 05/11/2011 by whatevertoni

I became a kpop fan because it made me feel good watching my favorites. But as time went by, I saw the ugly side of kpop. It’s freaking annoying and stressful.

I’ll back away for a while. But no matter how pissed I am, it won’t stop me from enjoying the music.

By the way, 2ne1’s new music video is awesome!!!!!!!!!

When the weather is hot, tempers rise up as well

Posted in blah with tags , , , , , , on 05/10/2011 by whatevertoni

This was the scenario in Monumento Station of LRT 1:

There was an Xray machine (anti-terrorist stuff) at the entrance, similar to the machines in the airport. My keychain got stuck in between spaces. It was no ordinary keychain. It created a really loud noise like an alarm since that keychain was like an anti-robber whatever. So, I sort of panicked because it was creating a loud noise. I struggled to pull it out. But then another bag was about to come out of the machine. I pushed the bag back to the machine, so I could pull out my keychain properly. I must have pushed it too hard unintentionally that the other bag turned upside down, and some of the stuff fell on the conveyor belt. Again, it was UNINTENTIONAL on my part because I was in panic mode. The owner of the bag said in a loud voice, “Miss naman, tinaob mo yung bag ko.” So I said sorry right away. In situations wherein it was really my fault, I apologize right away. Then she was still bickering, so I said, “Sorry po talaga.” I was really sure that I said sorry at least ONCE.

I got my bag, turned away when she furiously yelled, “Miss naman ikaw yung may deperensiya. Tinataob mo yung bag nang may bag.” I snapped right away, turned to her, and said in a really loud voice (not yet my loudest), “HINDI KO NGA PO SINASADYA.” We glared at each other, and she couldn’t respond at all. She was probably shocked at my indignation. Yes, I had proven my point. As I was turning away, I said with sarcasm, “Sorry ah!”

I so love her reaction. Wala tuloy siyang nasabi. Hindi ako palaaway, pero palaban ako. I don’t back down, especially if I’m right. Lumalabas pagkabitchesa ko. I came from a family of alpha females.

I had to write about the incident since I was still pissed about it. I’m in my PMS stage, and the weather was extremely hot a while ago. I could understand why tempers shoot up as well. However, that kind of reaction from a lady (in her 40s or so) was uncalled for. I could understand her side. I mean I would also be annoyed if someone turned my bag upside down, but I couldn’t see the point of being too hot-headed about it, especially if it was unintentional. I feel a little better knowing that I acted the right way. I didn’t call her names or said cuss words. I was successful in communicating exactly how I felt.

These scenarios of clashing tempers are common at the peak of summer weather in May. Everyone just can’t help but be annoyed over little things. But c’mon people, being annoyed would just annoy other people. Try not to spread the fire.

Credit to the owner of the photo. It’s my edit, btw.

Busy having a life

Posted in blah, KPOP on 05/10/2011 by whatevertoni

Lately, I’ve been preoccupied with the real life and have limited time for KPOP. I can feel that I’m slowly outgrowing KPOP. Oh well, we all outgrow things. Our priorities change over time.

The Party

Posted in 2NE1 on 05/06/2011 by whatevertoni

The Party of 2NE1 in Manila seems like it’s going to be an upset. It will start at 7pm and there are live acts of five other local performers. They’re really fine artists. I can attest to that since I’ve seen some of them live. However, people are going to pay to watch 2ne1. I’m not sure how many songs they’re going to perform, but I highly suggest not to expect too much. I don’t think it’s not going to be as satisfying as Super Show. In the Super Show, they performed for about three hours, yet it’s all Super Junior members who performed. Anyway, I’m still looking forward to them coming in Manila. =)


Posted in blah on 05/04/2011 by whatevertoni

I have an all day shoot tomorrow! I’m just behind the cameras. Call time is at 5:30 am, and it would probably end at 10pm. Errr. Hopefully before trains get closed.

I hate this part right here

Posted in blah on 05/03/2011 by whatevertoni

Maybe it’s hormonal imbalance. I really hate being overly sensitive. I hate feeling empty inside. I hate that I can’t seemto get a hold of my emotions. But I’m okay. I’m just feeling weird.