Archive for June, 2011

Don’t be afraid to breakdown

Posted in blah on 06/27/2011 by whatevertoni

I had a breakdown moment in front of my sister because of my stressful job. I feel A LOT lighter knowing that my family will still support me even if I don’t succeed in this profession. Breaking down isn’t so bad after all. I used to be so scared of showing my weakness. I didn’t know it was liberating.


Posted in blah on 06/26/2011 by whatevertoni

I’m not sure when my strength would end. I can feel my body deteriorating. More than the physical, the emotional stress is too much of a burden. I can feel my chest tighten every time I feel like I didn’t do a good job. I don’t want to quit just because things are hard. I don’t ever want to be called a quitter. I hope and pray I can stick through this til the end.


Posted in blah on 06/14/2011 by whatevertoni

that feeling when nothing seems to make you feel better

that feeling when all your efforts go in vain

that feeling when you know you’re walking a difficult path, but you can’t avoid it because you know you need it

i just need to hold on. hold on. hold on.

God knows I’m trying really hard.

*all day shoot tomorrow

Who’s the workaholic now?

Posted in blah on 06/10/2011 by whatevertoni

The moment I wake up, I work.

Just before I sleep, I work.

In my dreams, I work.

I’m usually not workaholic. I just have tons of things to do!!!!

Facebook app helps

Posted in blah on 06/09/2011 by whatevertoni
… that God is there for you to hold on. Hold on to what is good, even if it’s a handful of earth. Hold on to what you believe, even if it’s a tree that stands by itself. Hold on to what you must do, even if it’s a long way from here. Hold on to your faith, even if it’s easier to let go. Hold on to God’s hand.
This is exactly what I need. My work is really challenging. It’s multi-tasking to the highest level. Maybe I’m still adjusting. I can do this. I can do this. This is exactly what I need to hold on to.

patience.. i need patience..

Posted in blah on 06/09/2011 by whatevertoni

You know how everything seems to be your responsibility, yet you don’t get enough credit for it. Sometimes you even get blamed for the little mistakes. Mistakes can easily be magnified. Appreciation is barely given.

Lord give me patience!=)

Busy Bee

Posted in blah on 06/09/2011 by whatevertoni

It almost slipped my mind that I have to wash my face before I sleep.

My eye bags are getting fatter.

I don’t have time to brush my teeth.

I sometimes space out because of the tons of work I need to do.

I wanna scream…………

Lord, help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sana TV host na lang ako!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Is it all worth it?

Posted in blah on 06/09/2011 by whatevertoni

Doing all these. Carrying the weight of one ep. Maybe I’m still adjusting to this. Maybe I’ll get used to it. It’s just so heavy. Yes, it’s rewarding when I watch an ep. What about when I see that piece of paper. Speaking of, when will I see that piece of paper? I just want to say.. hope..and pray.. that all of these difficulties are worth it.

If you’re rude to media people..

Posted in 2NE1 on 06/06/2011 by whatevertoni

the whole world will know about it.

I admit that what the photographer did was really off. It was uncalled for just when things were heating up. However, I would still side with a fellow Filipino and a fellow media practitioner. I do not think that the airport media were briefed on where they were suppposed to stay or what were the do’s and dont’s. If the photographer was rude, then most probably Korean security were the ones who were rude first. The media people were waiting there for hours, only to get shoved away by Korean security. They were also prevented to cover 2NE1’s arrival. They were there to work, to accomplish the task their bosses asked them to. If they knew that they couldn’t cover the whole thing, they would not be there in the first place. Obviously, they were NOT INFORMED.

We all know that Korean security tend to be douche as what we’ve seen in fancams where the managers pushed and shoved fans, and even smash cell phones.  But c’mon, there’s a fine line between being overprotective and merely being a douche security guy. That Korean guy just crossed that thin line by threatening the photographer that he could lose his job. Oh no no no. He must have forgotten that he wasn’t in his territory. He was in the Philippines where the media people demand respect. From what I had seen, they didn’t get it in the first place.

You cannot expect to be respected if you do not know how to respect as well, DOUCHE!


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