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Posted in 2NE1, blackjacks, Chaera, Chaerin, CL, KPOP with tags , , on 06/28/2010 by whatevertoni

These are some downloaded photos/gifs that need to be deleted in my office computer. Images searched from


No other couple like this king and queen

Posted in 2NE1, Bigbang, blah, CL, express, KPOP, Taeyang with tags , , , , , , , on 05/01/2010 by whatevertoni

I so love this video made by TheRen214. The song is perfect! I know some of you are not SkyDragon shippers. I really understand you guys, especially Daragon shippers. Before MAMA, I was more of a Daragon supporter because I think it’s ridiculous to pair up two people like CL and GD who are so similar in so many ways. CL is like a female GD. I thought that Dara and GD had more chemistry. In fact they’re perfect together! However, when I saw the closeness of CL and GD in MAMA, somehow it left a deep impression on me. I mean, their closeness was not staged, it wasn’t even for a performance. It was oh so spontaneous.

Now, I’m not going to argue if they’re really a couple or not. I actually don’t give a damn if they are. What makes me happy is seeing them getting along well with each other. Of course, their so-called public display of affection (ehem, I can’t count the number of times they hugged and the camera caught it) never fails to make my heart melt.

Whether they’re a couple or not, their closeness is really priceless. As a girl, I somehow envy CL for having a close relationship with a guy like GD. From what I can see, their relationship is not something malicious. It seems that they’re just there for each other, supporting each other. They’re close and there is no doubt about that.


I sort of fell in love with CL first before I fell in love with GD. haha. Her personality and her looks captivated me. I don’t “love” her just because she’s hot. I’m actually not impressed by physical beauty. God knows there are a lot of beauties out there with no substance, talent, and personality at all! I’m talking about local showbiz here. They’re just shallow and superficial bitches.

I said to myself that if there’s ever a guy like CL, I will not even think twice and offer myself to him. HAHA. So I realized later on, that CL is actually a female version of GD. I used to hate guys like GD.  I absolutely don’t like skinny and androgynous guys. Everything has changed though. GD is an exception to my rule of no skinny guys. I prefer guys like Taeyang. He’s soooo masculine. I love that!  But then again, at the end of the day, looks will not matter at all. It’s always the personality that makes you stay.

Forbidden (Chaera fanfic)

Posted in 2NE1, blackjacks, Chaera, CL, KPOP with tags , , , , , , , , on 04/09/2010 by whatevertoni

So okay, I finally had the courage to start something. This scares the shit out of me. haha. I’m just not used to writing fiction. I sucked at this even when I was still in school. I’ll start from the perspective of Dara since I’m so “in love” with CL right now. haha. Ok here it goes.


Is there somebody who still believes in love?

I have to sleep. I grabbed my cellphone to check out the time. It’s 3:15 in the morning. Oh my! I really have to sleep or else I might collapse while performing at MAMA. I’ve been struggling to drift into nothingness these days. Random thoughts keep on entering my mind. Even unwanted thoughts out of nowhere intrude my once peaceful mind.

Those sweet caresses on my cheeks, neck, going down. I have never been touched that way again ever since…

Argh! I can’t let the past mess with my present. Sure, I love the taste of success, but there are times when my heart craves for more. When did I last fall in love? Three years ago! There is this song I used to listen in the Philippines with lyrics that goes like this, “I remember the boy but I don’t remember the feeling anymore.” Well in my case, I remember the feeling but I don’t remember the boy. I do remember J… Oh,  I can’t even continue just saying it in my mind. Sure, I remember him but I know he is totally different now. We live in two different worlds now. The picture of him in my mind faded with time.

I want to feel it again. What is it like to be in love again? What is it like to be desired again? What is it like to open up and share something so precious, so delicate with a special person?

Sure, love can wait. Sexy time cannot. I felt myself grin at that comment I had just made. And when I say sexy time, I don’t mean sex itself. I’m never the type who sleeps with a guy just like that.

I want to feel it again. Pleasure and pain at the same time making me lose my mind. I guess it’s passion in action. I want and need some action. I want it again. What was it like again to moan with overwhelming  pleasure..

Chaerin’s sudden movement on the top bunk distracted my thoughts. Please don’t move too much. I don’t want to be crushed and be dead yet. Anyway, this thoughts have nothing to do with wanting J back. This has everything to do with wanting to be intimate with a guy again. Sure, being single is fun. I get my companionship from the girls. Flirting with male idols once in a while adds up spice to my single life. Going solo isn’t so bad after all. But the inevitable always comes up.

Chaerin moves again. This is seriously making me worry. Why does she keep on moving? Usually she’s asleep like a comatose person. Maybe she’s also having trouble dozing off.

“Chaerin..” I said quietly, careful not to wake up Bom and Minzy.

“Unnie,” Chaerin answered with a groggy voice.

“Can’t sleep as well?” I asked.

“I just suddenly woke up from an unpleasant dream. Not really a nightmare, just unpleasant,” CL answered.

“Oh yeah? It’s just a dream go back to sleep,” I sort of ordered her.

It’s always nice to be around the leader. She’s the type of person you can lean on when pressure is too much too handle. I get huge doses of strength from CL. I’m happy to work with a member like her. If she were a boy, I would most probably fall in love with her. Hah! What a crazy thought.

I remember there is this sinking feeling in my chest while pleasurable sensation pours in. Oh how I would love to be drowned with pleasure once again. Yeah, they don’t call it orgasmic for nothing.

My thoughts are interrupted with Chaerin’s movement on top of me. On the top bunk I mean. What is it with her? What’s bothering her? I wish she can learn to open up. She always appear so tough. It’s difficult to imagine her harboring something inside. I think we all do. Chaerin is probably just used to putting up a brave front all the time. That may be the reason why all emotions seem to be buried…

“Oh?” I glanced at CL who is now lying down beside me in a split second.

“I’ll sleep here unnie. It’s cold,” CL said in a sleepy voice.

Chaerin hugged me tightly. She sort of squeezed me on my waist while resting her head on my shoulder near my neck.

“Goodnight,” CL’s voice sounded flat.

She turned on the other side after that quick hug. Her back is now facing me. This girl is just so unpredictable. She’s sometimes a cold and heartless leader, then at times you melt with her sweetness. I do appreciate her being affectionate. Bom and Minzy are always sweet, but Chaerin’s unpredictable behavior makes it all interesting. Sudden and unexpected affection always makes my heart smile.

“Goodnight!” I also gave her a quick hug with my hands on top of  her stomach. I turned to face the wall and drifted into a peaceful sleep.


Should I continue? haha. C’mon I need some inspiration. haha


Kate of for the screencaps. More screencaps of CL and Chaera there.

A must-read for ALL BLACKJACKS

Posted in 2NE1, blackjacks, blah, express, KPOP with tags , , , , , , on 01/08/2010 by whatevertoni

I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again. We are BLACKJACKS and we are supposed to be the ones defending CL, DARA, BOM and MINZY from fucking bashers and haters. I can’t believe that there are people (who have the NERVE to call themselves a BLACKJACK) who bash another 2NE1 member. You are not expected to like all the members but you are expected to at least show respect to them as part of 2NE1. Why do people have to drag down another 2NE1 member to prove that a certain pair is better than the other? It doesn’t matter if you bash in YGL or in other websites. Shame on YOU. YOU have the fucking nerve to call yourself a BLACKJACK when YOU go out there and fucking bash a particular member. How would you feel if your favorite 2NE1 member would be bashed? It really pisses me off if there are haters of 2NE1, but the reality is you can’t please everyone and we all have different tastes. So haters can hate all they want. I DON’T FUCKING CARE.




*I want to hear your side. Feel free to comment, BUT DON’T FUCKING BOTHER TO START AN ARGUMENT.

I’m upset so I’m so sorry if you read a lot of F words in this entry.

[editorial] Top 20 CL Moments of 2009 – #11

Posted in 2NE1, CL, KPOP with tags , , on 12/21/2009 by whatevertoni

*more top20 CL moments of 2009 on

No.11 CL’s gender bender image

CL is not the typical uber feminine girl and she’s not the boyish type like f(x)’s Amber. What’s really awesome about CL is her ability to switch from sexy chick to bad-ass chick. I mean wow! Not everyone can do that.

Not everyone looks gorgeous wearing only a simple T-shirt.

Now, brace yourselves for the sexy, uber feminine, uber hot leader.

Then, let’s try to combine it! I think combining it gives off her very IMPRESSIVE fierce image.

Whew! I feel breathless seeing those photos! 2NE1 talked about their mixed gender image on KBS Sukira Kiss the radio. Even the Super Junior boys think that CL is really cool! Starts at 2:43.



Heart palpitation

Posted in 2NE1, CL, KPOP, love?! with tags , , , on 12/17/2009 by whatevertoni

In a crowd, at least one person gets your attention. You try your best to ignore that someone, but for some reason you still get drawn uncontrollably. This one person is just so hard to reach. It sucks to just watch from a distance. The best thing to do is walk away with your pride intact.


Oh man, this is a happy blog and the mellow mood is not appropriate at all! HAHA! I was just talking about CL’s performance here:

She’s only wearing a shirt! Yet she still looks gorgeous! Why CL?! You always carry yourself confidently. Every time I watch CL’s performance, I forget everything. One time, I forgot that I was cooking beef.  I almost burned it. LOL. I sometimes feel lazy to take a bath because I keep watching 2NE1’s performance videos on Youtube. Oh man, I so love them. I so love CL. So this is how it is to be a fan. I used to think that fans are pathetic. In fact,  I still do. However, I don’t want to consider myself pathetic. I should instead turn fandom into something positive. I believe idols are there to inspire us. So for other fans out there, let your idols keep the inspiration alive. Peace!

May the FIERCENESS be with us all!

tensed! tensed!

Posted in 2NE1, express, KPOP with tags , , , on 12/14/2009 by whatevertoni

Okay, so I am finally one of the writers of CL’s fanblog. I feel soooo tensed! This is the same experience I’ve had before I wrote my first article for a magazine (where I was an Editorial intern). I wouldn’t call it a writer’s block. I would say that the pressure is just too much to take. I think I get too critical with what the readers might say; plus the added the pressure that it’s not my own blog. aarrghh!!! This is unproductive worrying. I have to just.. jump!